FLOWERS, FLOWERS, FLOWERS.

I took all of these this morning, except for the first one which is from Sunday.

DEAR FALL: I MISS U

I do, kind of. I like the summer things like warmer weather and seeing the sun more often, but I overall like the Fall and Winter more.

I just have one issue with it, two actually.

The first being the fact that the sun doesn't like coming out much, and I miss it as it's so cloudy and rainy here in those seasons. The other issue is the name, I know calling it Autumn is proper, but I'm just so used to calling it Fall that I always do, and it bothers me because I know its proper name is Autumn.

I love the cool weather. The cosy-ness of being in the house when it's pouring with rain or snowing. And when you get up in the morning and still can see the lights from other houses in the darkness of the valley in the distance because it's not yet light out.

Last year I was having a kind of hard time personally, and didn't really get to enjoy the seasons or holidays, which is why this year I'm kind of extra excited for it to come, if that makes sense?

But before I go, here's a picture of 15-year-old me in October 2008.

Finally got my stuff out of storage.

I brought all my summer clothes down from the attic this morning and put them away in my dresser and closet. Not sure why since the temperature peaked at only 15C today. But I did, in hopes of some slightly warmer weather.

THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS*~


I love these, I bought them at the end of the summer last year, but never got to wear them. They're a little big, but I like them too much to care.


One of my favourite things from last summer.


This skirt is a little restricting, the fabric isn't really stretchy, at all.


I don't know, I just love how vibrant these are in colour.


I cut these off and distressed them myself last summer.


I listened to my favourite songs off We Were Born In A Flame a few times and then some MJ. For some reason it ran a 'Genius' playlist, hence only 25 songs, I wanted it to shuffle, but it was doing it's own thing, I guess, ahah.


Since I've brought my summer clothes, including skirts down, I took everything off my skirt two hangers and organised it all. Those are all my skirts, most of them are from thrift stores.


The skirt I wore today, in detail, from the Salvation Army.


My dresser with a bunch of my shit piled on it. It's cleaner than it was yesterday so I don't care.


And finally, my makeup today. I seem to do this makeup look a lot during the spring and summer, and very rarely in the fall and winter. I don't know.

Shoes, baby, shoes.

I've bought two new pairs of shoes this summer, or actually only one pair, my mum bought me the first ones. The first pair are black and the second pair are dark brown.


35$, Suzy Shier.


20$, Winners.

Flowers and the Saturday morning newspaper.

Rock to the rhythm, and bop to the beat of the radio.

I shot these yesterday, I like the nob-flash look, more summery, I think.

I bought this top at Sirens a few months ago. Despite the fact that when my mum asked me where I bought it I said I got it from Winners because I genuinely thought that's where it was from until I looked at the tag last night.

The shorts are my usual high waist shorts from the Salvation Army that I cut off and hemmed.

The shoes are also from Sirens, I. just. love. them. They're plain black, as you can see I'm sure, with a rose on the toe. So cute.

It's too cold for it to be summer.

It really is. It's 14 degrees Celsius right now. My feet are freezing.

I may or may not have woken up early this morning to see the England vs. Germany football match (hint: I did), but I had to turn it off after Germany got their third goal. The better team won, like Wossy said, but still, it's a bummer.

I watched a bunch of the G20 protest coverage on CBC yesterday, all I can say is: Jesus, what. a. mess. I'm all for peaceful protesting, stand up for what you believe in, let your voice be heard, but don't be violent. I don't know a lot about the G20 or G8, other than it's a big economic summit. But I would say Nicolas Sarkozy (France), and David Cameron (UK) are the best looking, but that's not what it's about.

I'm starting to feel more into photography again, I took some photos (not of myself) yesterday morning, and a few of myself too (hence the the one below). I'll post some of the others after, I should've posted them first since I took them first, but I'm not. I might start using my Flickr again, I'm not sure yet though.

I also took some outfit photos yesterday, which I'll get around to posting sometime today.

I'll come back stronger than a powered-up pacman.

I took these on Saturday afternoon but have been too busy to post them, so finally here they are! I really like how these turned out, their probably my favourites I've taken in the last few months. :)

I bought the lace top from Sirens in the winter last year, and the bra is just a strapless black bra from La Senza that I've had for ages.

The shorts are my usual high-waisted cut off shorts from last summer, they're not so comfortable, but I love them anyway. The tights are Secret.

The sweater in the fourth picture is one I bought from the Salvation Army last... fall... I think?

And the shoes are my black ankle-strap heels from last summer!

PICTURE THIS

Briefly, I bought the blazer at a shop at a Boxing Week sale, it's a size too big, but I still like it.
The dress is from the Salvation Army, it was originally longer, but I shortened it.
The shoes are from Sirens.

This is sort of lengthy.

I haven't updated my blog much in the last little while for a few reasons.

One big reason being I haven't really had anything decent to post, which is a pretty big reason in itself. Another reason is one I wrote a little about in this post from December.

I've been having anxiety. It's frustrating, it's really frustrating. It can make me feel like not doing anything, which on top of already being somewhat of a lazy person equals not getting much done.

It's discouraging and is probably the most difficult thing I've had to deal with, despite this, lately, I feel stronger than I have for a long time. I feel like I may be finally onto something. Despite last month being one of the worst I've had with anxiety, I learned some things, some things I probably wouldn't have otherwise. No matter how bad I've felt, I think that deep down I've always known I'd be okay, even if I wasn't in that moment. I've always felt like if I could think and worry myself into having anxiety, I'm entirely capable to think myself out of it on my own, maybe even end up a better person than I was before I had any anxiety.

I'm a very articulate person, and I think, think, think. This is often a good thing, and sometimes a not-so-good thing when I worry and spend time thinking about negative things. Really, life is just too short.

I'm just a girl trying to find her place in the world and figure out who the hell she is.

I know a lot of people around my age have and do suffer with anxiety and such. And anyone that feels anything like I've felt or is feeling that way right now, I hope you never give up on overcoming your anxiety. Don't be embarrassed, don't think you're a 'loser' or anything of the sort, and believe in yourself. You truly can do whatever the hell you want and become whoever you want to be.

Becoming the person I want to be is, by far, the biggest project I've ever embarked on, especially since sometimes I'm not even entirely sure who that person is. As discouraged and frustrated as I sometimes feel, I know I'll never give up on overcoming my anxiety and becoming the person I want to be.

It reminds me sometimes of a lyric in the song Mystified, Heavy by Sam Roberts:

"There were times when my courage failed, but I never bowed to the storm."

When it comes down to it, I've always had something deep down someplace that says: Whatever, I'll be fine.

Don't stop me now, don't need to catch my breath.

Good morning, lovelies!

I haven't updated for a while now, I know. I'll do more of an update post sometime this weekend, for now, I have a few new photos from last Sunday.

Ciao! ♥







Vancouver Canucks logo t-shirt
DIY high waisted shorts